I had a dream last night that someone bombed the Richmond Bridge. 

There were pieces of it still attached on either side but nothing in the middle. I was horrified that terrorism had come to Marin.

Guess I’m still experiencing some feelings about the bombing in Pune that happened a week ago today.

The good news is that I’ve met some truly wonderful men and women at the ashram that I’ve been staying at. I’ve enjoyed my connections and haven’t felt lonely at all.

Surprisingly, I haven’t  felt much loneliness on my whole trip so far.

If anything, I’ve needed to carve out some alone time to let all of my experiences sink in. 🙂

Last night I was at the internet cafe and I overhead an Indian man say that he had food poisoning. I offered to give him some of my remedies since I had recently recovered from my own food poisoning.

He gave me a ride on the back of his motorbike to my hotel and I ran in to the get the medicine for him. When I came back out he said, “Do you want to see Pune? We can drive around a bit.” 

 I had a good feeling about him otherwise I wouldn’t have hopped on his motorbike to begin with so I said, “Yes” and off we went.

I would NEVER do this in America.

It was exhilerating riding through the streets of Pune. It felt even more adventurous and scary than riding on the back of a motorbike in Bali.

I felt so fully alive.

Maybe because the drivers are crazy in India. Which makes it a hair-raising event.

Like an E-ticket ride at Disneyland.

Anyway, after we drove for awhile he asked if I wanted to see a movie.

“Yes,” I said. I’ve actually been totally craving movies since I was seeing movies every week before I left and have gone cold turkey since I’ve been traveling.

We asked the ticket seller for an English movie and he recommended one. “It has a lot of English in it,” he said.

He lied.

It had maybe 50 words of English in it.

But it was still a fun experience.

Except for the fact that Indians talk throughout movies. That part  is totally annoying.

Everyone was talking. Babies were crying. Teenagers were laughing at parts that were not funny (at least they didn’t look funny to me). The guy who brought  me to the movies kept asking me questions: “Do you like this part?” “Can you understand?” “What do you think about that?”

How do you say “Be quiet!” in Hindi?

Then during intermission (they have intermission!), men with popcorn and sodas came up and down the aisles to sell more goodies.

That part was like stepping back in time.

After the movie (which I was actually able to follow) the guy (whose name I still don’t know) asked me if I wanted to get a bite to eat.

I said no so he dropped me off at my hotel and off he went and off I went.  

It was so cool. I’ve had a lot of ‘hopping on the back of motorbike’ experiences and they’ve all been wonderful.

On another note…in less than an hour I’ll be taking a rickshaw to the train station to go to Goa.

I’ve been singing: “She’s leaving (leaving) on the midnight train to Goa.”

Actually it won’t be midnight, it will leave in the late afternoon and arrive at Goa at 6am. I’ll be sleeping on the train which I’m really looking forward to.

And it will be great to wake up in a new place that isn’t Pune.

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The day I wrote that blog post about Pune I ate breakfast at the German Bakery (one of  the many meals I’ve had at that well-known tourist restaurant since I arrived in Pune 5 days ago).

I smiled at the cashier (sweet Indian man) and ordered a coffee and two small cookies.

I was plotting my escape from Pune.

Take a train to Goa or head back to Bali or ?

Anyway, I drank my coffee and ate my cookies and flipped through the India book to see what was next for me.

When I was finished I left the restaurant to move from my slum hotel accommodation from across the lane of the German Bakery to the much more expensive (but quieter) Guesthouse of the ashram.

In the late afternoon I walked past the German Bakery to get a train ticket from one of the many vendors on that street. Vendor after vendor was not able to sell me a train ticket for one reason or another.

Finally I found someone who could sell me a train ticket to Goa which would be leaving the next day.

All of this running around was making me much later than I thought which wouldn’t be a problem (I am on vacation after all!) but the ashram gate closes at 6:40pm until 9:00pm for the evening meditation.  If the gate closed before I got there I would have to occupy myself outisde of the ashram walls until the gate reopened at 9pm.

As I was walking back to the ashram, I decided that if I didn’t make the gate I would go to the German Bakery for dinner and to try their world-renowned chocolate cake before leaving the next day for Goa.

I made the ashram gate with a couple of minutes to spare. I attended the evening meditation at the ashram  and then went promptly to bed after having no sleep the night before in the slum hotel.

When I had breakfast the next morning at the ashram one of the people I sat next to at breakfast told me that a bomb had gone off at the German Bakery a little after 7pm the night before. 

Had I not made the gate I would have been at the German Bakery when the bomb went off.

9 people were killed and 45 people were injured.

It’s been 24 hours since I heard the news and I’m still in shock.

I’ve noticed that the American news doesn’t seem to be covering this story much so if you want more information you can Google “Pune Bomb Blast”.

This morning I was recounting in my head my time at the German Bakery the morning of the bombing and I realized that I think I may have seen the unattended bag that the waiter ended up opening and that caused the blast.

There was a backpack on a chair at the table across from me and an empty plate but no one was next to the bag.

Who knows if that was the backpack that later caused the blast?

Not me.

What I do know is that I’m feeling incredibly lucky to be alive.

I’m staying in Pune for the time being.  Much of India has a ‘red alert’ (meaning high danger warning for foreigners).

I’ve always felt safe in foreign countries but I have to admit I’m feeling a tad bit nervous about being in India right now.

So for now, I’ll stay put in the safety of the ashram. The Indian police (complete with big rifles) are on 24-hour watch in front of the ashram.

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Pune, India = Stinky Gorilla Armpit

by Kristin Morrison on February 12, 2010

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Warning: this is not a cheery blog post. You may have guessed that from the title.  Do not read this if you want to be made happier.  Reading this may have the opposite effect. I know my blog posts usually produce that  happy, happy, joy, joy feeling when they are read but this is not that. Anyway,  it’s about time for me to be a bit negative.  

Arrived in Pune, India 2 days ago to visit an ashram. The plane decended through a thick bank of what I initially thought was dense fog. What a welcome relief to all that heat in Bali.

No, it was not fog: make that thick, thick smog.

Lovely.

Ugggh…What a culture shock after gorgeous, lucious nature-filled Bali.  Pune (at least the part that I’m in) is dirty and smelly. Think the worst part of the Tenderloin in smoggy Los Angeles.

I’m doing my best not to try to change India. In my head. I’m really trying not to have India be Bali, which it will never be, not now or a million years from now. This way of accepting reality is so metophoric for my life. To accept people, places and things exactly as they are; not what I want them to be.

I stayed at a slum hotel last night to save some money (not realizing it was a slum in the daytime).  In a word: hellish.

Was kept up by my neighbors in the next room: “Ack! Ack! Adjahdlja kdalfkjal kdalad kdall.Ack!”

Then when they finally shut up (excuse me, I’m feeling more than a bit snarky after the lack of sleep and generally irrititability having arrived in the most horrid place on earth) I was then kept awake by the drone of what sounded like a helicopter taking off below me. All night. Still don’t know what that was given that I was on the top floor and there was a room below me?!

Then there was the elevator from 1856 which clanked and bonked with each new arrival to my floor (which was maybe every 5-10 minutes from 1am-6am). Where were all these people coming from? There were only 10 rooms on my floor. What the hell?!

Lord have mercy.

Then, there was the dog that would NOT stop barking. I love dogs. Ya’ll know how much I love dogs.
I did not love this dog.

In fact, truth be known, I was thinking of smart ways to get the dog to stop barking, some of which involved force.  Sorry, it’s true.  Only in my head, mind you. But still, there were absolutely NO  loving thoughts going through this animal lover’s mind at 4am.
Did I mention that whenever the hotel phone rings a phone rings on EVERY floor (including of course, my floor). Holy. Cow.

At about 3am I figured out an ingenious way to drown out the noise from all these $#%*&^^ people. I could have the fan on in my bedroom to create white noise.
Kristin! You are brilliant, I said to myself. Ultra-creative. You rock girl. Only problem: the room key has to be placed in the light switch for the fan to work (which I thought was such a clever thing when I moved in yesterday: no key equals no lights so they save on electricity. BUT the lights have to be on in order for the fan to work.

So the question then became: ‘sleep in full lit room with white noise’ or ‘sleep in dark room with basically the whole of Pune inhabiting my room with their noises?

Dark room with noise.

Not a happy camper am I. Which is basically what I was doing last night.

Camping in the middle of the Tederloin in LA.

$40 for a slum room in India = Not a happy Kristin.

Considering hopping on a train/plane to Southern India.

Did I mention that the internet woman keeps looking over my shoulder? I have this devilish delight in her seeing my title and my rant about her city and how much I detest it. Normally I’m much kinder but I’m feeling ultra irritible am crabby and not wanting to be in this city.

I’m going to give the ashram one more day to see if I resonate with it (right now I’m resonating with nothing except my dislike for Pune so not the right place to make a decison).

Will check in later when I’m not as snarky.

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I am leaving for India today and have decided to leave my computer behind for the 5 weeks that I’m in India.

Doing this feels a bit like leaving my blankie behind!

AND it feels very necessary as I’ve been on my computer daily, sometimes 2-3 times a day which has definitely kept the loneliness of traveling alone at bay but keeps me plugged in when really I want to experience being FREE (even if it means feeling lonely).

Your check-ins about how you are, comments on my blog and personal emails to me will be most welcome as I would love to continue to connect with you when I do check in via computer (every couple or few days instead of daily).

Next blog post will be from India!

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I’m not really in the mood to write much today so I’m just going to write a little bit to catch up and write more later.

Today Wayan will pick me up at 3:00pm to go visit a Bali orphanage and then we’ll go visit his priest to give him the picture that I had framed for his temple.

We were supposed to go visit his priest last night but I was still recovering from the ‘Bali Belly’ that I experienced a few nights ago when I got very, very sick so I had to cut our tour short yesterday.

Sheesh.

I can’t believe I’m still feeling sick. I usually have a very strong constitution but a couple of days ago I ate at a local Warung (think Indonesian diner) twice in one day.

Now I just simply pass the many Warungs on my daily strolls and I can feel my stomach cringe. You can bet I won’t be entering another one ever again!

It’s too bad because the food was good and cheap.

But the price to pay is too high…

The night I got sick (before I got sick), I went with Wayan and his family to a Temple Ceremony.

I continue to be so moved by Balinese spirituality. It lacks the flash, talk and preachyness that I see in America (sorry if I’m offending anyone; I realize this is completely my own perception of American spirituality and perhaps it is the way I have practiced my own spirituality!)

In Bali, spirituality is a quiet reverence and constant sacredness. It has nothing to do with anyone else and is not done to impress anyone else or to change anyone else’s viewpoint but rather Balinese spirituality is a mostly solitary act that occurs multiple times per day.

A woman near my hotel will come out in the morning with an offering (a variety of flowers and fruit artfully arranged on a banana leaf with a stick of incense). She will light the incense and put a flower petal between her fingers and kneel in prayer with the flower petal between her fingers. To witness her each morning feels like an honor.

And when I watch her I feel a bit like a voyeur.

She does this offering three times a day.

As do all Balinese people. (Some do it more per day but three times is the norm.)

Being with Wayan’s family and going to the Temple Ceremony was such a rich experience.

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I was the only tourist at the Temple Ceremony so I got many stares and smiles from the Balinese people.

Wayan’s family was so hospitable to me.

They gave me the beautiful top I’m wearing above and plied me with food and then we walked to the temple. His 11-year-old niece held my hand and would pull me close to her when motorbikes would zip past me.

We waited outside for about 10 minutes and then were let in when the prior temple goers exited. I sat down cross-legged on the dirty ground and was sprinkled with holy water, given flowers to pray with and taught how to pray by Wayan’s 11 year old niece.

The temple was quiet.

The air was filled with the sacred.

I think I’ll end there for now.

Tomorrow I go to India (3 flights with many layovers, one a 10-hour layover in Singapore so I’ll be staying at an airport transit hotel).

I’ll have lots of time to write in between flights so if it feels right, I’ll write more then.

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We get in the car and drive to the trailhead that leads to Wayan’s priest’s house.

Along the way we see women carrying things on their heads:

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“Do men carry things on their heads?” I ask Wayan.

“Men carry things on shoulder. No head. Only sometimes.”

As we are driving Wayan tells me about his priest:

“My priest very high priest. He have many problems in life. He become peaceful in the mind through training the mind. He does the Kundalini meditation. You know what that is, Kristeen?”

I nod.

He continues: “My priest cannot got to marketplace. Must have others bring what he needs. Many priests in India who say, ‘I am priest’ and people give them food. When you go to India you hear on every street corner ‘I am priest’. In Bali true priest do not say, ‘I am priest’. People must say ‘He is priest’. Not the one who is the priest say ‘I am priest’. My priest teach me how to relax the mind. Not be so angry. Not be so sad.  Teach to have a happy heart. No mental illness. He teach me the wisdom.”

I’m excited to meet his priest.

“You must wear sarong to meet my priest, Kristeen. And bring the offering. We stop here.” We stop at a market on the side of the road to buy a sarong and bananas and flowers.

We begin driving again and he points to coconuts on the side of the road. “In Bali we believe in the karma. Someone put these coconuts here, pick them up later. If you take a coconut, very bad karma. Balinese peoples believe in the karma. No take the coconut.”

“Here the trail,” he parks the car. “You bring your sarong. Change near the priest house.”

We walk on a steep trail down a mountain. I’m slipping and sliding in my flip-flops. Not what I usually wear to hike in the jungle.

Wayan says, “Mountain very steepy, Kristeen. You must walk like this,” and he points to his feet which are at an angle.

The view is stunning:

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Pretty soon we come to a river.

“We cross the river. You put on your sarong after cross the river, okay, Kristeen?”

I cross the river and my flip flops get caught in the sloppy mud that goes down to my calves.

“You wash your feet in river and I help you put on sorong.”

After my feet are clean he says, “You lift your hands like this,” he sticks his arms above his head.

When I do he wraps the sarong over my pants and artfully ties the sash. I feel like I’m a baby getting dressed.

We continue walking but this time up the mountain.

After a few minutes we come to a doorway at the top of the mountain.

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We walk through and his priest is sitting in front of the temple.

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Wayan has coached me on the way up the mountain to lower my posture when greeting the priest and to not point feet or left hand at or near the priest.

I bow down and say hello.

The priest nods to me, smiles and says something to me in Indonesian.

“My priest very happy you here. He wants people to come visit him. Students. Some know about him but not many people because he live so far up the mountain. No road. You come. He happy.”

“Please tell the priest I’m happy to be here and meeting him.”

Wayan does and then says, “My priest know many things. He know 100 years from now what happens. He 75 years old but very strong. He work in rice fields at day and ceremony at night. OH! Woman menstruation no meet priest. I forgot to ask. You menstruation now, Kristeen?”

I’m thinking ‘Too much information, Wayan’, but I say: “No.”

“Good. Some woman lie about that and see the priest. Bad things happen to them if see priest when the menstruation.”

Wayan goes on to tell me how the priest has helped heal his ‘mental illness’.  How the priest is like a father to him. How he gives what little money he has to his priest and how, at certain times, the priest gives what little money he has to Wayan.

“What you need, you get. No worries about the money. I think ‘I need the money’ and I meet you. You hire me for the taxi, I have the money.”

We stay for a couple of hours and wait out the rain that happened shortly after we arrived.

As we are leaving, I ask to take a photo of the priest and Wayan.

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Wayan asks if I can make a copy of the priest picture for the temple wall.

So last night after Wayan dropped me off at my hotel I go to Ubud Photo and have a large canvas picture of the priest made and buy a frame for it. I have a smaller canvas picture with frame made for Wayan.

The total for these two pictures is $60.00 which is A LOT by Balinese standards (and mine too, I’m spending money left and right these days) but the thought of giving these two men a gift fills me with joy.

As I’m walking back to my hotel I hear, “Hallo!”

It’s Wayan.

He’s on the street corner where I originally met him the first night I arrived. He’s waiting for someone to ride in his taxi.

I sit down next to him and show him the picture of the priest.

“This for the priest?!” he asks.

“Yes,” I say, smiling.

“He will like! He will like! He happy to have picture. Many come to take picture of him, no tourist give him the photo. He put this in his temple wall.”

“And this one? This one for you?” he points to the second, smaller picture that is face down on my lap.

“This one is for you, Wayan. My gift to you.”

His face lights up as he looks at it.

“For me? Thank you, Kristeen.” He turns the frame over and sees the price on the back of the frame. “Oh, you spend the 90,000 for the frame, very much money, no?”

“You are worth it, Wayan. You’ve given me so much.”

“On Saturday when we go to Denpasar I give you the special sarong. My gift to you. Maybe one with the orchid. You will like. My gift to you.”

“I would like that.”

He stops smiling. “Kristeen, when we go to the temple you must be the very seriously. No laughing, must be very seriously. Sacred ceremony. Wear sarong. Very seriously.”

“Okay, Wayan, I’ll be very serious.”

“Okay, I pick you up on Saturday for ceremony with my family. On Monday we go to the priest, you give him this picture gift. I put the paper over it, he open, in this way, surprise. I pick you up at 7:00 in the evening on Monday to see my priest.  I bring a light. Very dark at night in jungle. We stay there until 10:00. Priest have special ceremony. You come.”

Wow.

“Wayan, I want to tell the tourists about you. I want to hand out your card and tell them that you are the best driver in all of Ubud.”

Wayan says, “I make my own lucky, Kristeen. I no need you to tell them. When I need the money, I get the money. I sit here for three hours tonight, no transport. It’s okay. I joking, I laughing, happy heart. I see you here. Happy. It’s good. What I need, I get. You no need to tell the people about me. I create my own lucky.”




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Yesterday Wayan (aka: Spiritual Teacher / Taxi Driver) arrived at my hotel at 10am to pick me up for a tour of Bali.

“Where you want to go, Kristeen? You want to see the rice fields? You want to see the mountain? Where you want to go today?”

“I want to go to your village first. I want to meet your cows and see where you live.”

“Okay. I take you to my village. You see my cows. You meet my family. We start there.”

It’s hot in his taxi. I could have hired a driver with air-con (there are hundreds of taxi drivers in Bali with air-con) but they wouldn’t have been Wayan.

And I wanted Wayan.

Even if choosing him meant I would be sweating like a pig for the day.

“Why do you have a flower on your ear, Wayan?” I ask, eyeing the blue flower petal crumpled over the top of his left ear as he navigates the busy road out of Ubud.

“Flower on the ear is prayer to gods. It’s offering. In the morning I wake up, I make an offering. Put flower there. Thank God to waking up. Reminder. Reminder to thankful.”

“Yesterday you had a yellow one there,” I say.

“You go to garden, not always the red flower. If always red, you think: ‘I no like this garden’ but if all different color: red, yellow, blue then the garden is very beautiful.

Every person different color too, their character different color. Is good. Not same.”

“What color am I?” I ask.

He eyes my skin and smiles and says, “You white flower.”

We laugh.

“People sometimes say, ‘Wayan, you handsome man.’ Sometimes I look in mirror and see the handsome. Othertimes not so handsome. Not so confident me.”

“I think you are handsome, Wayan,” I say.

“Thank you, Kristeen.”

“Don’t get a big head, okay, Wayan? You won’t be able to walk through the door.”

He laughs. “I no big head. Too much thinking I handsome not good, Kristeen. Not higher or lower than any other peoples. Same. The higher not good. The lower not good. Creates the mental illness. No connection with the other peoples from the heart if higher or lower than the other peoples.”

He changes the subject: “You want the suckling pig? If you want the suckling pig we stop. Have the lunch.”

“Sure, I’ll have the suckling pig.”

We stop at a village roadside stand where he orders both of us a plate of pig with spices and a scoop of rice.

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After we eat we drive to his village.

“I have simple house, Kristeen. No fancy. Someday I build nice house with the Balinese architecture. I design house in my mind already. Now, it’s the simple house. You see it.”

He parks and kids come out and stare at me as we walk through a gate.

“This my cows. My chickens. You no like the chickens. I like the chickens,” he smiles at me.

“Use chickens for the cockfighting. You no have the cockfighting in America. In Bali we have the cockfighting. Here, you want to hold my chicken?” he lifts the basket covering the white rooster and plops the chicken in my hands.

It clucks nervously. I pet the soft white feathers.

“Nice chicken, Wayan. Very beautiful.”

“Yeah, but you no like the chicken. The noise. I take you away from chicken to hotel with no chicken. Too noisy for you. You see my cows? I cut the grass for my cows. Now they eating.”

His roosters and his cows look incredibly healthy and glossy.

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“You want to meet my how-you-say-it? My brother wife?” he asks.

“Sister-in-law,” I say.

“Oh, yeah, the sister-in-law. You meet the sister-in-law and the kids.”

We walk past the cows and roosters and he stops at a little hut.

“This my kitchen. I have stove here,” he points to a brick oven. “Wood go underneath and I cook. It’s my more fancy stove. This my old stove,” he points to a hibachi-type stove.

“Come, we meet my sister-in-law and kids.”

We walk beyond his kitchen to a house where a woman and her two daughters are sitting.

Wayan speaks to her and she smiles to me.

“Hallo,” she says.

“Hello,” I say.

We smile shyly at one another.

She has such a familiar, sweet face.

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“You travel alone?” she asks.

I nod.

“How old you are?”

“Forty one.”

“Forty one!”  She speaks something to Wayan and they laugh.

“You travel alone? You single?”

“Yes,” I say.

“I double,” Wayan says.

His sister-in-law and I crack up.

“You are a funny man, Wayan,” I say.

He smiles at me.

His nieces are playing with a kitten and he says, “See my dog?” he points to a dog sleeping sideways on the floor.

Before I bring kitten here I talk with my dog. I say: you be nice to kitten. Dog usually run after the cat but if you talk to the animals they listen and so I talk to my dog and he listen to me. No fighting with the kitten. Very peaceful. No problem. Only time problem when the kitten eat the dog food then the dog make a noise and kitten know not to eat the food. That’s only problem. Otherwise peaceful.”

We spend a couple of hours talking: me, Wayan and his sister-in-law.

The view of ricefields behind the house:

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At one point he turns to me and says, “Saturday we go to temple ceremony in Denpasar. My sister-in-law, the kids, me. You want to come?”

“Yes.”

“Okay, I pick you up at the hotel at 4:00 on Saturday. You must wear the sarong. For the temple. No sarong, no go into temple.”

“Okay.”

“What you want to do now?” he asks.

“I want to go meet your priest.”

“You want to meet my priest?  We go. He no have the road to his house. Only walking through the nature. No driving there. This okay?”

“Yes.”

“Okay, we go now. He maybe working in the rice fields. We see.”

He goes into the house and comes out with a small laptop computer.

“You know how to use, Kristeen?” he asks, handing the computer to me.

“Yes.” I say.

“I don’t know how to use. Maybe you teach me sometime.”

“Sure,” I say.

“My brother, husband of sister-in-law, in Alabama. Working, making money in America. Send money to wife in Bali. My brother on the Facebook. We try to get the Facebook now?”

I click on the Firefox browser but nothing happens.

“You don’t have an internet connection, Wayan.”

“Okay, we try later.”

“My brother’s wife very sad husband in America. Cry sometimes. Very sad. Sometimes I think ‘ I will go to America’ but I stay to help her with kids. I think the money not good. I don’t want to leave my family for the money. Better to be with family than so much money.”

We look at each other and nod in agreement.

“We go to visit my priest now, Kristeen.”









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Yesterday I spent a lazy afternoon at Casa Luna, a beautiful restaurant overlooking a garden…drinking bottled water, eating yummy organic food and writing two blogs posts in between emails to friends and family.

It was blissful.

I sat in this cafe for over 4 hours and just ate, wrote and breathed. It was the perfect way to spend an afternoon.

Then I came back to go swimming before Ketut picked me up to meet the Bali dog lady at 5:00pm. While I was swimming a hotel staff member came down and said, “Kristeen, you know Ketut?

“Yes, he’s coming here at 5:00 to pick me up.”

“He not coming today, Kristeen. He with family. He call and say he do it another day.”

So I just swam and read while waiting for my next appointment which was to go with Fia to the Bali birthday party.

She picked me up on her motorbike (no helmet):

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and I hung on while she skillfully navigated the road that was filled with cars, motorbikes, dogs and people.

“You scared of motorbike, Kristeen?”

“A little,” I admitted.

“I drive only 40,” she says pointing to the speedometer.

I’m thinking: Fia! Get both hands on the handlebars NOW.

But I don’t say that.

Instead I listen as she says, “I drive slowly for you, Kristeen. Because you scared. Usually I drive 80.” Again she points to the speedometer as we fly around a corner.

“Thanks for driving slowly for me, Fia.”

“You’re welcome. I no want you to be scared. I want you to be happy. Have fun.”

I breathe and try to dispell any thoughts of being injured or maimed by any one of the motorbikes and cars coming at us and, thankfully, passing us (albeit within inches of my leg).

We arrive at the birthday party and it is in a church. A Christian church. The only Christian church on the whole island of Bali.

Fia tells me the story while we dismount from the motorbike and walk toward the church.

“I Javanese. Not Balinese. Balinese is Hindu. I no like Hindu. Too many rituals, takes too much time. I Catholic but no Catholic church in Bali. So I come here. Started by an American woman. Today is her birthday.”

We walk in and all of these Indonesian dark heads turn to look at me, the only other white woman besides the woman who started the church. They smile. Kids point at me and whisper behind curved hands to their moms.

“Look at that whitey girl,” I’m imagining them saying.

There is a sermon going on that we’ve interrupted so we quickly sit down.

The sermon (in Indonesian) goes on for about an hour and is complete with singing.

At one point during a song the American woman gets up and grabs my arm and we go dancing around the church. People are clapping and laughing.

It’s pretty fun.

Then everyone sings Happy Birthday to her (in Indonesian) and she cuts the Balinese cake (coned-shaped saffron rice) and the American cake (in the shape of a Bible).

Then we eat.

Oh my Lord. The food!

Fish satay skewers. Spice-rubbed shredded chicken over rice. Spicy pork. String beans with something (I’ve no idea what was in it but it was delicious).

I ate and made friends with 6-year old Balinese girl named I-You. It means ‘pretty’ in Balinese.

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She had a mischievous way about her. A little rascal, which I liked. She tried to teach me Indonesian and would giggle hysterically at my pronunciation.

My friend Fia told me, “I-You says she wants you to come to her house.”

“I would like that. Tell her I would like that.”

Fia did and I-You and I just grinned wordlessly at one another.

We got on the motorbike after that and Fia called behind to me, “You want to go to listen to some jazz?”

“I want to get a massage now.”

“Massage! Kristeen! It’s 9:30pm. You no find a place for massage this time of night.”

“There is a place by my hotel,” I say.

So she drops me off and we make a plan for her to come on Friday to swim at 1:00 and then we’ll go on a motorbike ride.

I get a massage and fall asleep on the table.

“Kristeen. Hallo. Hallo, Kristeen. You wake up now.”

I wake up and then walk back to my hotel room and promptly fall asleep and wake up at 5am as I have all mornings so far.

Still on a bit of a jet lag.

Today at 10am I go on an all-day Bali tour with my spiritual teacher / taxi driver Wayan.

That should be fun and enlightening.

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Balinese Beauty and More Taxi Driver Wisdom

by Kristin Morrison on February 2, 2010

in Bali,Inspiring People,Travel

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Wow.

Bali.

It doesn’t matter that it is so much more developed since the last time I was here because the essence of Bali is still very much the same as I remembered.

Everywhere I look I see intense beauty.

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But the beauty of the surroundings is only surpassed by the inner beauty that radiates from the Balinese people.

It’s what I imagine people in heaven to be like.

Balinese people are happy. They may look serious but then I smile at them and they break into these enormous ear-to-ear smiles. To date I’ve never NOT had a Balinese person smile back at me.

The light from their pure souls radiates outward.

There is an ease, innocence, undefendedness, and safety amongst the people that I’m starting to feel rub off on me from being here a few days.

Slowly but surely my soul is unfurling.

Yesterday afternoon after swimming with Wayan I walked into town to buy some clothes and my feet started to hurt again. I’ve got these huge blisters on my feet that I’ve attached band-aids around in order to walk. So I’m hobbling around town.

But at least now it is a happy hobble.

Since my feet were hurting so much I decided to take a taxi ride back to my hotel after shopping.

I decided that the next person to say “Transport” would be the one that I would choose to drive me.

“You want transport, lady?”

So I hop in and my driver says, “I Made. (Pronounced ‘Ma-day’.) Where you from?”

I tell him.

“How is the economic in America?” he asks.

“Some people having a hard time, Made.”

“Not so good, here right now, too,” Made says. “No money makes people sad. Best to be not too happy or too sad.”

“Why not too happy?”

“In between best. Middle good. Too happy you waiting for bad, no? Too sad, you waiting for the happy. In the middle best. No waiting,” he says.

“Bali economic not so good right now. Tourist good. Bring money to Balinese. Balinese peoples give money for offering. Offering helps the world. Tourist helping the world because money from tourist goes to Balinese offering. Bali people no keep all money from tourist for themselves. You know what I mean, Kristeen? Tourist helping everyone. Not just Balinese people. In this way the tourist is good for the world.”

I’m speechless.

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Surprises Abound

by Kristin Morrison on February 1, 2010

in Bali,Being in the Unknown,Life as a Grand Adventure,Travel

On Day Two in Bali I awoke to the endless sound of roosters crowing from 3:30am on and I knew I would not last long at that particular spot.

So I used a friendly Balinese man’s cell phone to call up Wayan (my spiritual teacher/ taxi driver from the night before) to see if he could help me find a new, quiet place.

“Hallo, Kristeen, you want to go on a tour today?”

“No, Wayan, I need to find a new place to stay.”

“You no happy with place you stay?”

“Too many roosters.”

“What you mean ‘roosters’?” He asks me.

“RRRR-RRRR-RRRR,” I say making my best rooster crow sound.

“Oh, you mean the chicken. You no like chicken?”

“I like to eat the chicken, not the RRRR-RRRR-RRRR. No sleep,” I say.

He laughs.

“Many chickens in Bali, Kristeen. Everywhere. You no find a place no chickens,” he says.

“Maybe not so many chickens,”  I say.

He said he would pick me up at 9:30am.

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Even the shirt he wore had wise words for me: Cultivate Curiosity and Interest.

When I commented on this he said, “What that mean, ‘curiosity’? What that mean, ‘interest’?”

I explained and he smiled. “Easy to be curious in Bali, no?”

We drove to about 20 places and I was starting to express my dismay at not finding the right place.

“You no have the patience, Kristeen. No patience means the mental illness.” He points to his head.

“We find a place. You no worry. Relax, Kristeen, ok? You no in a hurry. You have the patience.”

“Okay.” I’m sweating from the lack of air-conditioning and my stomach is growling.

Finally we find the perfect, quiet spot with only a few roosters.

It was more expensive than I was planning on spending (it is about $50 US dollars) but it is comfortable, exquisitely beautiful, has a pool and will enable me to sleep a mostly rooster-free sleep.

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Wayan helps me bring my backpack up to my room.

“You want to go for a swim, Wayan?” We are both sweating from driving around for 3 hours without air conditioning.

“Yes, I go for a swim with you.”

While we are swimming he tells me about Balinese love.

“There is a bigger love in Balinese, bigger than love between most man and wife. You know about that?”

“No,” I say.

“It is the powerful love. Man gets married to first wife, is to be expected, get married, maybe he young. But then maybe he not know what he want in love, you know what I mean, Kristeen?

When older he know more what he want, bigger than the how-you-say, Kristeen? Bigger than the love of man for good-looking, beautiful girl.

That is the kind of love I talking about. Bigger love. From the heart. Big heart. Bigger than the mind, yeah?”

We swim and I think about the Big Love.

“You want to go on tour of the Bali island, Kristeen?”

“Yes, Wayan, but today I want to relax at my hotel, maybe walk around town a bit.  Maybe later this week, ok?”

“Okay, you call me, I come pick you up. Take you on a tour. Only 350,000 rupiah for all-day tour. I give you history of island. Show you my village.”

The next day (yesterday) I wake up early and am noticing a sense of loneliness at the expanse of unplanned time that lies ahead of me.

Here is what I wrote in my journal yesterday morning:

Even though I had those sweet connections with the taxi driver and Gary, I am still feeling the intense desire to go home and it is only Day Three. I have about 75 more days traveling alone in this vast world and already I want to go back to what is familiar!

I have absolutely NO plans today. I don’t know what I want to do. I feel aimless and lonely. Is this what it feels like to live an unleashed life? I’m starting to want the leash back. This void of nothingness feels too scary.

I’m so used to doing. And when I’m not doing I know what I will soon be doing.

I had my second dinner with Gary last night but then no more plans with another person for the rest of my trip! And no plans at all until I take the plane out of Bali to India on February 10. What the heck do I want to do in this beautiful place? And if I can’t be happy with myself HERE, where the heck can I be happy?

I decide to go explore the streets near my hotel.

The first shop I enter I buy flip flops. My leather flip flops have succeeded in giving me blisters and I need some new ones.

“Hallo,” says the shopkeeper.

“Hello.”

“Where you from, miss?” the shopkeeper asks.

I tell her and she says, “I Fia. Short for Fiatika. What your name, miss?”

“Kristin.”

“Hallo Kristeen,” she says.

She asks me more questions and pretty soon I’m inviting her for a swim at my hotel.

“I come to swim on my break at 5:00, yeah?” she asks.

“Sure,” I say.

Here is a picture of my new friend, Fia:

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“You want to go to a party with me tomorrow? Big birthday party. 80-year old woman.”

“Yes,” I say.

“Okay, we go swimming together today at 5:00 and then tomorrow I pick you up at the hotel at 7:00 and you go with me to the birthday party. Friday you come with me on the motorbike to look at Bali, ok? It’s my holiday that day. No pay, you my friend. No pay.”

“Okay,” I say.

This trip is about saying YES.

I walk around town and then come back to my hotel.

A staff member says, “What you do for work, Kristeen? You writer? You writing the book?” (He’s seen me tapping away on my laptop.)

I tell him about my work with animals and business owners and he says, ” I am Ketut, Kristeen. I have friend from America, helps the dogs in Bali, you want to meet her tomorrow?”

“Yes,” I say.

“Okay, tomorrow at 5:00pm I pick you up on motorbike, take you to my American friend who helps the dogs.”

“Okay.”

I’m suddenly feeling the need to pick up an appointment book on my next trip to town.


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