Am I still a young woman at age 40? 40 is the new 30 these days, right? Hee.
I woke up this morning excited to do my regular Friday routine which is:
make tea (2 cups so I don’t have to get out of bed until I’m really ready)
write my morning pages in my journal
do my homework for the relationship workbook that I’m doing with Tarra
meditate for (gulp) 8 minutes
hop on my bike
ride to the Good Earth for lunch (Otherwise known as the ‘dating vortex’.)
ride to the movie theater to see a matinee and eat lots of popcorn for dessert (Yum. I like popcorn as much as the movie.)
ride to the gym
ride home exhausted, happy, satisfied
but..it is raining.
Wahhhhh.
I can’t ride my bike with all this rain.
So instead I took extra time with my homework for this workbook I’m doing with Tarra. It’s a 49-day workbook (7 weeks) and there is an exercise a day. Every Monday night Tarra and I get together to discuss what we discovered in doing the homework.
I’ll share my homework with you.
Today’s homework was called “Receiving Inner Guidance”.
It involved writing a letter to God, Higher Power, whatever is the term for a Power greater than ourselves (I use God because I like that term).
And then using our pen to have God write back an answer to us.
Here is my letter and “God’s” response. 🙂
Dear God,
I’m confused about Bali. On the one hand, it feels really right for me to go there. In my meditations when I’m listening for guidance from You about where to go I’ve had those images of flower baths and those cute Balinese kids and the green, green, green which is so reminiscent of Bali’s lush foliage and rice fields.
But I don’t know what I’ll DO there in Bali. I don’t want to just loll around by a pool or get massages and spa treatments. I do want to do those things for sure, I just don’t want that to be all that I do. I want this trip to be meaningful in some way.
Should I start in Ubud? What will I be doing there? How will I or how should I spend my time in Bali? What is the purpose of my going to Bali? Of traveling at all for that matter?
Here’s “God’s” response to me:
Dearest Kristin,
Sweetheart. You so want to know the answers to all of life’s questions-now! This takes a lot of the mystery out of life which is much of what makes life fun if you can just enjoy the ride.
Life is a mystery. To know now what will happen in Bali and why you are meant to go to Bali will take a big part of the adventure away.
Alicia and Sierra were incredibly wise when they, within a day of each other, told you that until you land in the place you are traveling to, you don’t always know why you are there. They were wise to tell you to “Let Bali guide you”.
You may find little inklings now, while you are still in the US, about why you are going to Bali but it surely will take stepping off the plane onto Balinese soil for you to really get the ‘why’ of that particular destination.
Kristin, you felt at home there, deeply at home, eleven years ago. There is still a piece of home there for you which you will rediscover by traveling there again. It doesn’t make sense to your conscious mind. To simply look at you, you look as different from a Balinese person as one possibly could look. But on a heart and soul level there is indeed a resonance and familiarity with Bali and its people.
Being in Bali will be deeply soothing to your soul. You may find Bali as a jumping off place and you may end up somewhere else besides Bali in the course of this 2 month journey. Maybe India, Africa, another Indonesian island.
The important thing is to trust yourself, trust that is okay to not know. Trust that the ‘why’ will be revealed to you in perfect timing.
Life is an adventure! Enjoy the ride.
Is this God writing to me? Not sure. But I do know that reading those words was comforting to me and I feel more at peace with the not knowing as a result of reading them.
About Me: 
