Last night, after writing my blog post about my indecision, I had this dream:
I am traveling. I ask people how to get to my destination. I’m lost. People are going out of their way to help me. Very kind people. Laurie is there at the help desk and she tells me that I’m to go up the mountain and through the dark forest. Another woman points me in the same direction as does a friendly couple.
I have to leave before it gets dark. I head into the forest and then realize that I want to say a proper goodbye to all of these helpful people so I go back and hug everyone. I go back to the help desk and hug Laurie. I hug the woman who pointed me in the right direction. I walk through a stopped train and find the friendly couple and hug them in the train.
With each goodbye I practice breathing and really calming down; not being in a rush to say goodbye but rather enjoying the connection with each person. It is a great feeling.
And then I’m on my way up the mountain and through the dark forest…
Today I realized that, though I’ve had a lot of outward signs pointing me in the direction of India, I haven’t had a real solid feeling of YES from within. I had the lift of my spirit when Peter spoke about the retreat center in India and the classes there but again, I haven’t had that internal, centered feeling that comes when I’m moving in the right direction.
When I let that internal place guide me I am always led in the right direction.
In my dream last night I had a lot of helpful people pointing me in the direction of the dark forest (eek!)
In real life, since writing that last blog post, I’ve had lots of you helpful friends embrace my indecision and send me loving emails and point me in the right direction of going within. (Is ‘going within’ symbolized by the dark forest? Ohhh! What will I find there?)
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